Like oh my gosh, is that you?

Tonight I am meeting two of my old friends for drinks. I am very nervous. When I say old I mean not in age but from a long, long time ago. I haven't seen these two girl friends in over ten years. The scary part is not seeing them and worrying about what I am wearing or look like, its will they still like me? These are my two high school best friends. The girls who I shared my biggest secrets with, they knew all about me and still liked me, we were going to be each others maids of honor when we got married, the girls who saw me through the best and often worse times in my life. Okay so you get the point.

The problem is they have remained friends. I guess in a way they were always the closer two anyway, but I am worried. We didn't have some dramatic falling out or anything like that- we just grew apart in college- different sororities, friends, boyfriends. So I have to ask, have I become the person we always said we wouldn't be? What if they think I am not funny or friendly, what if my life is just completely boring to them. I don't know much about what has happened to them since we last saw each other. They are single and live a block apart. I am married, with a baby, and our lives are very different. I just can't help to think if we were that great of friends why aren't we still in touch? Through this wonderful world wide web we got back in touch with each other and tonight will take the plunge and see each other again.

I wonder if they are dreading it? That would suck. I hope they are excited. We will see.